"It’s funny, how when you are in a relationship with someone, your mind absently notices them in everything and everywhere. Their eye color in your morning coffee, a shirt you think they would like, their name on a building, billboard, or a company with their name, when you are somewhere and see their favorite breed of a dog or cat, their favorite color, their birthday, their favorite food, a song they love, someone with their same name, anything. And when you lose this certain person, you finally notice how much they consumed your thoughts, and it haunts you. It haunts you when you first wake up, when you are out somewhere, when you are taking a shower, when you are walking, when you are driving, even in your dreams and nightmares, you still notice this person, and see them in everything and everywhere. It haunts you, it haunts you, it haunts you."
"i told everyone that i was over you. i deleted your number from my phone and your face from my camera. i think they even started believing me…i think i even started believing me. but ive got everyone fooled you see, even myself, and i know that because i went out to lunch today. its one of the first times ive left my flat since the night you slammed the door and promised never to open it again. i went out to lunch, and when the lady asked me i almost said table for two instead of one. when she sat me down she took the extra plate setting, and i had to bite my tongue before anything came out. i was reading the menu, quietly telling myself that people werent staring, and i took a breath and shook myself out, and looked up with the words ‘what are you thinking’ dying on my lips. i was looking at an empty chair, but all i saw was your face. the blurriness of my tears only making my hallucination clearer, and i gasped as you looked up and me and laughed. ‘you think youre ready for this?’ you shook your head at me sadly, and i wiped at my eyes to make you disappear, but found myself missing you as soon as you were gone."